Friday, March 23, 2007

Emotional Roller Coaster

It’s amazing how talking to different people can change your perspective on things. For weeks I have been standing at a crossroad. Yesterday I thought I was certain which path I was going to take. However, after having a long discussion with TheBoy last night I now realize that the path I need to take is the opposite. Perhaps I needed a voice of reason?

And today, even though I know that the choice we made was ultimately the wisest, I feel… sad. Like I’ve given up yet another dream that doesn’t quite fit into the life I’ve chosen. Why does it have to be one way or the other? And why is it always me giving in? *sigh* But enough sour grapes. This is the best decision… Financially. For us. For now.

5 comments:

Michele said...

If you feel sad, maybe it isn't the right decision. I know money is a big factor, especially when the cost of living out there is so high, but money isn't everything. In fact, I daresay it's nothing if you aren't happy.

Kate said...

ok i have no idea what you're talking about because you're being so private, which i respect, and all i can say is that it does sound like you are very troubled. and sad. i'm sorry, hon. i wish things were easier. hang in there. and i'm here if ya need a friend.

Melina said...

sounds like this has something to do with marriage...marriage has nothing to do with money. You could be married for fifty dollars and then in the future, you could have the wedding reception of your dreams! Think about that...you shouldn't always have to give in, even if it SEEMS wise to do so. *Hugs*

Tiffany said...

Not marriage - career changes. Lord how I WISH our marriage issues were as easy as a few bucks! :)

Kate said...

happy birthday tiffy!!!!!!!!!!!!!