Thursday, October 27, 2005

Feeling Blah...

No I'm not wandering around in my bathrobe muttering to myself... Yet. But I think it's a combination of the stress of waiting to hear on our offer for that house and the crappy gloomy weather outside that is making me feel so blah. I'd really like nothing more than to curl up in my pajamas and go back to bed. For like a week.

Of course when I start feeling blah I always seem to shift to thoughts in my head that are not necessarily so positive. This morning (and I mean early this morning - like 2 am) I start thinking about how my life is not at all what I thought it was going to be at this age. Does anybody else feel that?

When I was a little girl I couldn't wait to grow up! I thought my 20's were going to be IT. You know filled with weddings and an exciting career and owning a home and having babies. Well here I am on the tail end of that decade with none of those things accomplished. Granted my desire for ankle-biters has diminished rapidly over the years... But still. It's not quite what I thought it would be.

I think that's why the offer on this house is stressing me out so much. This is the first house that we've looked at that I can actually see us being happy in right away. Without tens of thousands of dollars spent in remodeling. And I can't help but think that if we DID get this house that at least I'd be one step closer to the place where I want to be.

But of course knowing our track record we probably won't. In the 10 days it takes the sellers to get back from their vacation there will be 2 more open houses and probably 5 more offers. And we'll be out bid. Again. But a girl can dream right? I mean it is possible...


Sorry for the gloomy gus this morning... I'm sure the sun will come out soon and I'll be back to my normal cheery self. In teh meantime, TheBoy has posted the pictures we took of the house online here if anyone is interested in checking it out.


Michele said...

Thanks for posting the pics, I have been dying to see them! Love the plaid wallpaper, I assume you will wallpaper the rest of the house with something like it as well?

Don't worry, you are not the only one feeling your life isn't where you thought it'd be at this point. I was thinking the exact same thing last night. I mean, in a couple years I will be 30. Sigh.

Tiffany said...

LOL - you can't really tell in the photo but the bathroom is papered in a vivid turquoise blue kind of paisley pattern. THAT is my favorite! I think I'll do the rest of the hosue to match - including turquoise carpets... No?

It's nice to know I'm not the only one... :)

Lisa said...

" life is not at all what I thought it was going to be at this age. Does anybody else feel that?"

Only every other day or so... Especially this year. I'll be 40 in about a month and a half, and that has triggered A LOT of introspection. Never thought I'd be divorced, thought I'd have more kids, a better job, etc etc etc etc. So don't worry, you are NOT alone!

The house is cute... I love that big archway between what looks like the kitchen and living room?

Liz said...

Oh honey, you definitely not the only one. I thought at this age I would have it all figured it. I question every day why am I not where I thought i would be? Where did I make the wrong time.

I swear there is something in the water lately too. I feel blah, oddly lost, wondering if I will ever find the things I am missing.