No I'm not wandering around in my bathrobe muttering to myself... Yet. But I think it's a combination of the stress of waiting to hear on our offer for that house and the crappy gloomy weather outside that is making me feel so blah. I'd really like nothing more than to curl up in my pajamas and go back to bed. For like a week.
Of course when I start feeling blah I always seem to shift to thoughts in my head that are not necessarily so positive. This morning (and I mean early this morning - like 2 am) I start thinking about how my life is not at all what I thought it was going to be at this age. Does anybody else feel that?
When I was a little girl I couldn't wait to grow up! I thought my 20's were going to be IT. You know filled with weddings and an exciting career and owning a home and having babies. Well here I am on the tail end of that decade with none of those things accomplished. Granted my desire for ankle-biters has diminished rapidly over the years... But still. It's not quite what I thought it would be.
I think that's why the offer on this house is stressing me out so much. This is the first house that we've looked at that I can actually see us being happy in right away. Without tens of thousands of dollars spent in remodeling. And I can't help but think that if we DID get this house that at least I'd be one step closer to the place where I want to be.
But of course knowing our track record we probably won't. In the 10 days it takes the sellers to get back from their vacation there will be 2 more open houses and probably 5 more offers. And we'll be out bid. Again. But a girl can dream right? I mean it is possible...
Sorry for the gloomy gus this morning... I'm sure the sun will come out soon and I'll be back to my normal cheery self. In teh meantime, TheBoy has posted the pictures we took of the house online here if anyone is interested in checking it out.